Tuesday, 12 December 2017

Jackson - 16 Months

Ah little guy. I don't know how it has got to 16 months into your life and I think I have maybe done 2 updates here but life is fairly busy. I just finished my child and adolescent counseling diploma. I'm just making sure that I know how to talk to you when you get bigger and give me a hard time. JUST kidding, it is something I have wanted to do for years and I loved it. I got a distinction, just saying.
SO Jackson, you are an absolute little legend. You put up with a lot of manhandling from your sister and you take it like a total champ. Although you certainly screech if she takes a toy from you. You are a really cuddling baby and you stay in those cuddles for an always unexpectedly long time. I couldn't love you any more dude and sometimes I do wish that I had more one on one time with you. BUT next year when your sister goes to school then there will be a couple of Mama/Jackson days so yay. 

You are finding your words at the moment and although Bye Bye has been your number 1 word, today you got 'apple' which I am pretty impressed with. You call me Mama. And say Dadeeeee, which you have been saying for months when you hear him come in the front door from work. You still do this awesome smile where you scrunch up your face and throw your head back. It makes me laugh every time. You sleep on your front and other than when you were ill (so many viruses and gross-ness these past few moths) you sleep pretty well. You are a bit of a fussy eater, would rather have pesto pasta parcels and peanut butter on toast for every meal but you are good with fruit too. Yogurt is also a fave and last month when we went to the ice cream place and didn't get you your own (I thought you could share mine and Luna's and Granded Berries') you went pretty ballistic! You are happy at Tarnerland, your sweet nursery but I am not sure if I will keep you there once Luna starts school as it is a bit of a trek over the other side of town.

You have completed this family and made us all insanely happy. Love you little Jacksie-Pie. Don't grow up too fast. x


1. Lucy & Yak
2. Missoma Interstellar Necklace
3. Veronica Dearly Pin
4. Feminist Fight Club Book
5. Glossier Parfum
6. & Other Stories Snow Boots
7. Leather Shelf Scandibørn
8. Suite One Studio Plates
9. Moon Juice Herbal Supplements

Tuesday, 4 July 2017

Thinking About Me

Ahh time spent just thinking about myself... a very rare occasion but something which I think I do every year for my birthday and is a nice way of bringing together things which I merely glimpse on the fly during brief instagram browsing or musing on things which I actually need in my life! Hi BKR bottle and some exercise trainers which arent from 2001.

1. Moon Pendant - eriadesignsjewelry - Etsy
2. BKR water bottle (to replace my lost one and 18 not as good ones in 2016/2017. Should have just rebought this one to start with!)
3. Ahh Santal you beauty, anything from this brand, but my candle collection is very diminished
4. Dr Jackson's Night Skin Cream from Cult Beauty. All natural, mega lovely.
5. Nike Free TR7 AMP trainers
6. Hanging gold and glass terrarium from Oliver Bonas, think I need more gold and plants in my life
7. Obsessed with this painting from thislakshmi. Spot on mama post natal body.
8. Ferm Living coffee cups. Oh true love! On sale now from Studio NL.

Wednesday, 11 January 2017

Jackson Elio

5 months of this little squirt and he is currently:
Trying to sit up
Trying to eat everything on my plate
Loves cuddles
Smiles all the time (dimples!)
Sleeps pretty well, goes to bed at the same time as his sister now
Has around 4 naps a day
Wants anything shiny within his reach
Intrigued by his toes
Adores bath time (always has, never a tear in the bathroom!)
Almost crushed with love daily by his sister
Not terribly keen on his car seat
Says mamamamama
Will chew any finger he can get into his mouth
Makes very weird (dogs perk up their ears 3 miles away) noises and little screams
Wants to be facing forward in the ergo (sadly we don't have the ergo 360)
Don't think his hair has committed to a colour yet
Finally his gunk eye is gone
Such a joy to have around

Jackson Elio Conlon Perry

Jackson arrived earthside at 5.03am on Thursday 11th August.
Little chilled out babe.

Tuesday, 2 August 2016


Out now please little person! 
Officially given his eviction notice. Please don't be too late people are looking at your mam like she is about to deposit you on their shoes!

Thursday, 28 July 2016

39 Weeks

Ah so ready for this little boy's arrival! I want to kiss those cheeks and let him curl his little fingers around my finger. Have been doing all the pineapple, raspberry leaf tea and dates action which I can but I know he will come in his own time and I can wait. I am just moving very slowly now, the ankle is stiff and I feel huge! 
Having some acupuncture on Tuesday (our guess date) and hoping that he comes out ASAP!

Tuesday, 19 July 2016

38 Weeks

It's so effing hot here I have to keep running my wrists under the cold tap. Our house is a total shit hole because there is a new kitchen going in and all the contents are in the living room. I am looking at a spiralizer and a toaster right next to my computer! 
Luna is over the chickenpox now so spirits are a little higher than they were last week, despite the fact that it is about a billion degrees and I am the size of a house. 
You can come whenever you are ready little guy. I can't wait to meet you!
(I probably should have cleaned the bathroom mirror before taking this - I think that is toothpaste on my cheek)

Friday, 15 July 2016

37 Weeks

Ah full term! 
So we are hoping that the moxi and acupuncture and chiropractor worked, I can breathe and you are in such a different position to how your sister way at this point. Please stay head down little dude! If you came now, you would hopefully be ok. And there are lots of signs that your arrival is just around the corner, you have been doing a lot of practise breathing, which I never felt with your sister, where you push against my stomach and breathe as if you really are breathing, the right rhythm and then afterwards you get the hiccups. Very sweet!
Last night I had about 3 hours sleep because I was having braxton hicks contractions, my stomach would get very very tight every 5 or so minutes and the muscles felt like they were making you really really round and pushing you down a bit, again something I never felt with your sister. I tried to do my hypno birthing breathing despite it not being painful, just distracting while I was trying to drift off. Really can't believe that I will be kissing those cheeks within the month. 
I got my broken ankle boot off this week and managed to put your bed nest in the right place and decorate your corner a bit so that you have some bits to look at when you are lying in it. I think it looks really nice, I hope you do too. Although we will probably be moving from here once you are 5/6 months old so that you can have your own bedroom.
See you soon.

Thursday, 7 July 2016

Week 36

Our house smells of... a certain type of bush weed! On Monday I went to see the chiropractor, then for acupuncture and moxibustion and so your papa has been heating my little toes every night to try and get you to turn head down! I know this sounds crazy but the NHS recommends it and its success rate is something like 75%, which is gob smacking. 

Tomorrow we have our presentation scan and I will see you again, I can't wait!

Thursday, 30 June 2016

35 Weeks

I can't believe we are a month from our guess/due date. Feeling very irritable today but I know I feel like that so sort of keeping it in check. Slept awfully this week waking up every time I turn over as it's rather tricky with the lack of ankle use and the big bump. Joe passed his driving test today though! How good is that?! It's been really challenging not being able to take Luna out to the countryside or just pop to waitrose at the weekend and for all those nursery runs on Thursdays.
Anndd just in time for your arrival little man! (Now daddy is a proper man! We will get him using that drill soon and then the world is his manly oyster)
I guess you are pretty much fully formed in there now, just putting on fat and squishing up for our cuddles! I have a feeling, just like your sister, that you can't get in the right position, I have been seeing a chiropractor for the Webster technique, to see if my pelvis is twisted, she says it is, not the worst but I am having a few sessions to see what we can do and to sort out my graphic designer upper back which came up as inflamed on the temperature scan. I also have moxabustion and acupuncture planned for Monday and a positioning pregnancy massage on Thursday, then maybe another moxa and acupuncture next Tuesday. I'll do everything I can to try and get you in the right position and out naturally because surgery again so soon after the 9 pins and 2 plates in my ankle is not appealing to me. And it means maybe I'll be able to feed you easier this time, which is important for both of us.
I can't wait to see who you are! We can't agree on a name for you though, boys names are so hard.
See you soon xxx

Thursday, 23 June 2016

34 Weeks

34 Weeks!
Ankle on the mend...

Thursday, 9 June 2016

32 Weeks

Very badly photoshopped image this week but I can't sit with my foot in it's boot on the floor for much longer. We have had a lot of sofa time this week trying to mend my ankle as well as growing you. The sun is out, it is June and it is lovely, I only wish we were hanging out in parks with your sister. Hoping for lots of that after you arrive little man. 
Also... you have toe nails!!!

Friday, 3 June 2016

Week 31

So after sliding down a bank with your sister, going over on my ankle - both ways - you and I ended up in hospital with 3 broken bones, then in surgery, 9 pins and 2 plates later we are home and resting with Granny Bunny who has flown in to look after us from America. Growing you and healing this ankle is certainly making me very sleepy but I am just happy that you are ok in there and trying my hardest to position myself so that you aren't a little breech baby like your sister was (think you are transverse atm) which will render all your Daddy and I's hypnobirthing learning and practising redundant on the day we meet you. 

If you can hear me little person get your head down it'll be a lot more comfortable! 
Love you already and we are forever bonded together by this ridiculous week of events. Just stay on the inside until August please. xxxxx

Tuesday, 17 May 2016

Week 29

We have been talking to you lots and lots this week as we realised that you can hear us from now on. I am in full nesting mode and feel like an animal trying to prepare my nest for not being able to leave it! Also I feel like a human space hopper. I have my date to finish work - 7th June but it doesn't look like the house is going to sell in time so you might be born here, like your sister which I quite like actually. 2 little Railway Street babies.

Friday, 6 May 2016

Week 27

Such a mixed week; our house sale fell through but a few positives from work. I am feeling pretty frazzled and not sleeping very well. I wake up earlier than Luna every morning! 
Curled my hair, which I never do. Enjoying the little kicks from the baby but so keen to know which way around you are. Starting our hypno birthing course tomorrow which I am really looking forward to. I have used up all 10 of my pregnancy yoga classes. I can't believe it has been 12 weeks since I started! I also can't believe I am in the 3rd trimester next week!

Tuesday, 26 April 2016

26 Weeks

You have opened your eyes - That is just amazing to me. 
Hi in there little guy!

Friday, 22 April 2016

Baby Boy Wishlist

The sweetest of things for this little baby boy. I definitely know what I want second time around and what worked last time. Millions of muslins! No shoes!

1. Really lusting over a Solly baby wrap. Or a black linen Sakura Bloom, but I think the Solly looks more comfortable.
2. High hopes for the Tiny Cottons AW16 socks!
3. This Ouef NYC hat is just too much
4. Gorgeous Siebensachen music ball from Adam + Horth - divine
5. Nomilu teether (something a little more beautiful than Sophie!)
6. I already have an ice cream print Modern Burlap muslin but there are so many more monochrome designs
7. Lovely Goat Milk NYC vest since this is a summer baby and they are just so beautifully organic and sweet and soft

Wednesday, 13 April 2016

24 Weeks

This little boy is soooo wriggly this week! I dont know what position he is in, always changing but the kicks are usually my left hip bone or side or under my right rib hmmm, could those be hands?!

23 Weeks

A bit behind on these. It's been an intense week for various reasons. Why does shit always seem to go down riiiiight in the middle of being pregnant. Hey ho, I have this little person to focus on. Oh wait, your older sister just woke up...

Tuesday, 5 April 2016

April Wishlist

1. Been looking for this magazine everywhere! Lunch Lady. Watch the video on why the very clever lady launched it here.
2. Cluse watch; so damn pretty, so damn sold out
3. Gwyneth Paltrow's new book. Whether you love her or hate her her food is magic.
4. Gorgeous Pien Oka ring
5. Studio Arhoj, so in love with these ceramics from Denmark
6. Not left anywhere in my size. Uhh. Adidas double sole bold Stan Smiths.
7. Bjork and Berries. How beautifully Scandinavian is this brand? I want the whole range.

Thursday, 24 March 2016

21 Weeks Pregnant

Really not feeling as grumpy as I look here! Off to Cornwall on holiday and finally over my 5th cold of 2016 so feeling chipper!

Wednesday, 16 March 2016

Week 20

We had the loveliest scan today (lets not talk about the 12 week, when Luna refused to stay in the room, it was torrentially raining and I ended up in tears). You were munching away on something and just seeing your little mouth opening and closing made my heart go all funny. Ah a boy, I knew it, you have really taken it out of me with all the growing and since you are an (should everything go to plan) August baby we have nicknamed you The Lion as August = Leo. And it has felt as hard work as if I had really been growing a lion. Sooo, if you could ease up on the immune system take down (5th cold this year so far and we are 3.5 months in) and stop randomly still making me sick now that would be great. Thanks. I wasn't surprised when they told us but your Daddy was, he beamed like crazy even though he maintains that he didn't mind either way. I saw his face! He isn't going to be out numbered... He was super happy.
I am pretty concerned about the world of men you are coming into, when people like John Terry and George Osbourne exist in the spotlight and positions of power. Who will you look up to? I just hope you can look to males within our family and friends, there are some pretty great ones there.
Oh little lion, what have you got in store for me??

Wednesday, 9 March 2016

Week 19

19 weeks. Cannot believe we are halfway next week. Where is the time going??

Tuesday, 8 March 2016


1. Ikea Raskog Trolley - would be so useful for the new baby, with the limited space we will have to begin with
2. Skinnydip x Zara Martin Kitty Headphones from Urban Outfitters. OMG.
3. Beautiful silk shirt dress from Rennes, my new favourite brand
4. Byredo Hand Cream
5. Also from Rennes, now sadly sold out, blush leather coin pouch
 6. The Frankie magazine 'A Little Bit Crafty' book
7. Suede HI Air Force Ones

Sunday, 6 March 2016

Week 18

I think a major growth spurt has occurred!

Week 17

Starting to finally feel better in terms of pregnany related symptoms, then taken out with the freight train of sinisitis. Next week I'll feel better (I pray)

Sooo... Baby Number 2

Unless you don't follow along on instagram we are now on our way to making baby number 2. The first trimester was gruelling to say the least, lots of being sick and urghness for 9 weeks. Even at 16 weeks this time around I didn't have my energy back. As I said above my finale day of puking was rather dramatic and then that was that and I haven't actually been sick since. Oh but plenty of dry retching. Thanks pregnancy hormones!

Saturday, 12 December 2015

Spice Cookies - Pepperkaker

Spice Christmas Cookies, Pepperkaker by Trine Hahnemann

Makes 30-50 Depending on the size of your cookie cutters.
150ml Golden Syrup
250ml Soft Brown Sugar
2 tsp Ground Ginger
2 tsp Ground Cinnamon
1/2 tsp Ground Cloves
175g Butter, Softened
150ml Double Cream
1/2 tsp Bicarb of Soda
750g Plain Flour, plus more to sprinkle

Day 1:
Beat the syrup, brown sugar, spices and butter in a big bowl until soft and smooth. Add the cream and beat again. Sift through the bicarb of soda and flour, then mix into the butter mixture. Flour a work surface amd lnead the dough well, then wrap in clingfilm and leave in the refrigerator overnight.

Day 2 (Or whenever you are ready to bake, this keeps in the fridge for up to 3 weeks):

Preheat the oven to 200C or gas mark 6. Roll out the dough as thin as possible on a floured work surface and cut out with differently shaped and sized cookie cutters. Place on trays lined with baking paper. Bake for about 12 minutes, then leave to cool on a wire rack.

Thursday, 10 December 2015

Kate Tempest

Europe is lost, America lost, London is lost,
Still we are clamouring victory.
All that is meaningless rules,
And we have learned nothing from history.

People are dead in their lifetimes,
Dazed in the shine of the streets.
But look how the traffic keeps moving.
The system’s too slick to stop working.
Business is good. And there’s bands every night in the pubs,
And there’s two for one drinks in the clubs.

We scrubbed up well
We washed off the work and the stress
Now all we want’s some excess
Better yet; A night to remember that we’ll soon forget.

All of the blood that was shed for these cities to grow,
All of the bodies that fell.
The roots that were dug from the ground
So these games could be played
I see it tonight in the stains on my hands.

The buildings are screaming
I cant ask for help though, nobody knows me,
Hostile and worried and lonely.
We move in our packs and these are the rights we were born to
Working and working so we can be all that want
Then dancing the drudgery off
But even the drugs have got boring.
Well, sex is still good when you get it.

To sleep, to dream, to keep the dream in reach
To each a dream,
Don’t weep, don’t scream,
Just keep it in,
Keep sleeping in
What am I gonna do to wake up?

I feel the cost of it pushing my body
Like I push my hands into pockets
And softly I walk and I see it, it’s all we deserve
The wrongs of our past have resurfaced
Despite all we did to vanquish the traces
My very language is tainted
With all that we stole to replace it with this,
I am quiet,
Feeling the onset of riot.
But riots are tiny though,
Systems are huge,
The traffic keeps moving, proving there’s nothing to do.
It’s big business baby and its smile is hideous.
Top down violence, structural viciousness.
Your kids are doped up on medical sedatives.
But don’t worry bout that. Worry bout terrorists.
The water levels rising! The water levels rising!
The animals, the polarbears, the elephants are dying!
Stop crying. Start buying.
But what about the oil spill?
Shh. No one likes a party pooping spoil sport.
Massacres massacres massacres/new shoes
Ghettoised children murdered in broad daylight by those employed to protect them.
Live porn streamed to your pre-teens bedrooms.
Glass ceiling, no headroom. Half a generation live beneath the breadline.
Oh but it's happy hour on the high street,
Friday night at last lads, my treat!
All went fine till that kid got glassed in the last bar,
Place went nuts, you can ask our Lou,
It was madness, the road ran red, pure claret.
And about them immigrants? I cant stand them.
Mostly, I mind my own business.
But they’re only coming over here to get rich.
It’s a sickness.
England! England!
And you wonder why kids want to die for religion?
Work all your life for a pittance,
Maybe you’ll make it to manager,
Pray for a raise
Cross the beige days off on your beach babe calendar.
Anarchists desperate for something to smash
Scandalous pictures of glamorous rappers in fashionable magazines
Who’s dating who?
Politico cash in an envelope
Caught sniffing lines off a prostitutes prosthetic tits,
And it's back to the house of lords with slapped wrists
They abduct kids and fuck the heads of dead pigs
But him in a hoodie with a couple of spliffs –
Jail him, he’s the criminal
It's the BoredOfItAll generation
The product of product placement and manipulation,
Shoot em up, brutal, duty of care,
Come on, new shoes.
Beautiful hair.
Bullshit saccharine ballads
And selfies
And selfies
And selfies
And here’s me outside the palace of ME!
Construct a self and psyhcosis
And meanwhile the people are dead in their droves
But nobody noticed,
Well actually, some of them noticed,
You could tell by the emoji they posted.
Sleep like a gloved hand covers our eyes
The lights are so nice and bright and lets dream
But some of us are stuck like stones in a slipstream
What am I gonna do wake up?
We are lost
We are lost
We are lost
And still nothing
Will stop
Nothing pauses
We have ambitions and friends and our courtships to think of
Divorces to drink off the thought of
The money
The money
The oil

Tuesday, 24 November 2015

Beauty Favourite

1. YSL Mascara, the best of the best when it comes to my pale eyelashes!
2. When I was first given this Aesop Ginger In-Flight Therapy Oil I had no idea what to do with it. Now I use it as a quick perfume if I don't want to smell really strong, it smells fresh and gorgeous and is calming too. Win win!
3. Santal 33 by Le Labo. Oh my - have you smelt this? The most addictive scent out there.
4. I am obsessed with this French beauty editor's secret Bioderma Crealine. The kindest water based make up remover and cleanser I have ever used.
5. Pelle soaps are vegetable oil based, super kind and natural soaps all hand cut in Brooklyn. They smell divine and look pretty cool too.
6. I tried this on in a shop and couldn't stop licking my lips all day. I had to go back and buy it. Herbivore Botanicals make the most heavenly natural beauty products which I have put on previous wishlists. I am also totally in love with their packaging.
7. Fat & The Moon is a made to order natural deodorant with no aluminum which my Mother kindly brought over from America for me. It isn't as effective as shop bought deodorant but it is the best I have tried without those toxic chemicals in.
8. & Other Stories have a gorgeous beauty department and I bought a few things from there which I could have put on here, namely the Fig Body Mist but this hand cream is refreshing and under 100ml so perfect for your hand luggage if you are only taking a carry on holiday.
9. Another French beauty insider secret, I adore this moisturizer so much I can't ever see myself changing to another one. It smells like a glamorous aunt and it does the job beautifully.
10. Grown Alchemist has burst onto the beauty scene with all sort of plant based tinctures and creams. I especially love this anti oxident serum which contains rosehip and buckthorn berry. 

Just my personal favourites and not all with the coolest packaging but these are what I adore at the moment.

Wednesday, 4 November 2015

Alexa Wilding

How has your perspective on motherhood and life in general changed after such a dramatic life event (on finding out one of her twins had cancer just before his 1st birthday, every Mother's worst nightmare)

"That last day I walked Lou to the emergency room, when I still didn’t know what was wrong, I felt connected to every mother that had ever lived. That feeling has stayed with me. Motherhood is love. It is death of the ego (not your amigo!) and it is to surrender to God, whatever form he/she takes for you. Personally for me, that higher power is nature. We are all living things growing and changing and malfunctioning, etc. We are one. So, while, yes, my heart was broken, I feel lucky that I get to wear such a messy organ on my sleeve and be a part of such a wild world."

Again Mother Mag finds me another idol/girl crush/inspiration. Read the article here.

Tuesday, 27 October 2015

Luna 23 Months

My little monkey is going to be 2 in under a month. I am LOVING this age so much. I think in retrospect January-June of this year was really challenging, that phase when they can't communicate properly but just want to explore destroy your house like their life depends on it... 
That I found utterly exhausting! Now she sits still for a little longer and can concentrate on something (she is an absolute pro at the match the shape to the picture game!) Embarrassingly since I am in charge she has developed a love for Peppa Pig and My Little Pony. She is speaking so much, asked in the park the other day - what's that racket? when someone started drilling nearby. She also calls me a cheeky little monkey which I find hysterical. She is so cuddly and happy and such a lovely little person, with the occasional road block of total determination to do something utterly random. I took her to Druscillas, which she loved and a in the lemur enclosure one of the animals jumped right over her head to her utter horror, she made a swift charge for the exit!
Some other things I have noted down this month;
She was a total angel on the flight to America, against what my aisle friend told me would happen she fell asleep half way there and slept on me for 2 hours, when she woke up she looked around and handed me a few things which were in her little cardboard bassinet, climbed in and went back to sleep for the rest of the flight! She had such a lovely time with her Granny Bunny when we were away. What a cute little pair. Her sleep adapted to US time within 2 days but it took weeks on the way back and was the catalyst to her starting to skip her lunchtime nap, which she still does every other day now. There doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason, she can sleep late and still nap or wake up earlier (still not that early which I am so pleased about although damn you daylight savings) and go down happily. Sometimes she just lies in her bed and chats to her teddies for a hour! 
She chats so much now, occasionally she makes sense; mama flag! sometimes it's total gobbledeegoop. 
She was doing something a month ago which made me laugh so much, when I called her name out in the house she replied 'Luna' a few seconds later. Made me cry with laughter! Why would you think to come when someone says your name unless you know that's a thing?
In Menorca on holiday she came out with; tortoise is walking. I was pretty impressed!
She was brilliant at a wedding recently after devouring a cupcake she took to the dance floor and ran around it laughing like a madwoman and hiding, sometimes behind pillars, sometimes just behind her hands. We all did it when we were little, right?!
She melts my heart when she says - cuddle meeee and has got very bossy with her orders and loves taking my hand and leading me places. 
Things she currently loves: Sarah and Lola
All her friends although she sometimes tries a little too hard to engage with them, this involves getting right in their faces and taking what toy they are holding! Actually she has got a lot better at this, but there were a few weeks where it was pretty embarrassing for me!
Her new train set
Peppa Pig
Giving me the side eye and telling me off
Wagging her finger or saying shhh with her finger by her mouth
Finding sticks and conkers etc
Eating blackberries from the bush (got very obsessed with this in the New Forest)
Franksie (how she says Frankie's name)
Sticker books, saved us when we were away and on the 5 flights she went on in September!
Dowies (dollies)
Getting cosy, under blankets
Painting and drawing
P'butter, which she asks for every morning as well as...
Juicies (see image above)
Milkies, she asks for when she is tired and wants to go to bed
This month she has discovered a love for apples and foraged her own on a few trips to Stanmer
Ice cream, can lead to a crazed fit if she sees an ice cream freezer, but isn't allowed one

Her sleeping in the past couple of weeks has got SO much better having had her in our bed May-September, she stopped going straight back to sleep when I brought her in and started thrashing around and opening our eye lids with her finger and thumb saying Mummy WAKE UP or literally trying to kick me out of the bed so we took a weekend to sort it out by doing controlled crying on the Friday night and after crying for a good few hours the first night on the second night she cried for maybe 10 minutes and then stopped, the next night she slept through and I think she has only woken one night since then and I just sat in the chair for a few minutes in her room while she went back to sleep. Ah sleep, when it is going well all is good with the world! Then you completely forget what it was like when it was bad. 
She is such a dude at the moment and I adore having chats with her, I am so proud of the little person she is becoming and I still day after day love her more and more. I am enjoying hanging out with her so much at the moment and she sits pretty well when I need to pack up orders or finish up some freelance work.
She loves books too and at the weekend when she comes in she points to the books of hers that we keep in our room and says stoweeee! She adores all the Belle & Boo books, Joe loves reading her Mr. Leon and we recently got this one, which we all love. I am waiting on the Birdie book too from the very clever Julie @dancewithdirtyfeet which we can't wait for and this is another non bedtime one she loves getting involved with.
Also... that hair! She has had a ponytail in a lot recently and she looks so grown up when she has it, it totally breaks my heart it is so beyond cute. I can't wait for plaits.

Thursday, 17 September 2015

Being A Working Mum

My dear friend Annie Ridout has written a little piece on me and life as a working Mum on her brilliant new online magazine The Early Hour – all about culture, lifestyle and parenting. Articles are published at 5am (‘The Early Hour’) so that parents don’t miss out... Head over to here to take a look.

Wednesday, 19 August 2015

Birthday Wishlist

Yes I have a saucepan on my wishlist this year - what has happened to me?! Well I am a part time SATH (that's stay-at-home-mother for the uninitiated) so I spend a lot of time in the kitchen and less no time wearing heels. Regardless of that I have some heels on here in the mild hope that I will have something to wear them to at some point in my future. Also the striped dress - I would absolutely look like a giant round humbug dressed in this but it looks so damn cool on that model. Seriously though, I would rather someone (there are only 2 people who read my blog so YOU) just put the money in a pot and take me to see the Northern Lights at some point in my life.
1. Neoflam Retro Frying Pan
2. Mr Larkin Dress
3. Elisha Marie Hammered Ring
4. Herbivore Botanics Pink Clay
5. Grown Alchemist Day Cream
6. Moheda Clog Heels
7. Green Kitchen Travels or The Green Kitchen
8. Stine Goya Sweater ~ This just arrived in my inbox from Our Daily Edit this morning and would be perfect for the season ahead. See my pinterest for further links.

Luna 20 Months Old

I am so late on this but I will really regret it if I don't keep writing so here goes... I write down as much as I can when she does something new and amazing or when I have a thought on life with Luna in my phone so I think I may have to just write in list format for now.
  • She is speaking so much, it started with just a few words but she is now really trying to communicate and linking words together. Her very first sentence was - more please mama. She says Mama all the time at the moment - down mama or out please mama and even though I hear it all day it breaks my heart with how sweet it is and how much she is growing. Often I forget just how important I am to her, how I will always be her mama and how I am more comforting to her than anything else in the world.
  • We had a rain filled week with family in Austria but Luna discovered bikes and we went on lots of bike rides where she sat in the trailer behind with her cousin Eddy. She fell asleep on his shoulder and they fought like cats and dogs! Now she says bike all the time; so we got her a little bike seat to go on the front of my bike and she loves it so much she shrieks and waves at people and points things out all the time like, mama tree! mama doggy! mama swingsies!
  • We also had a beautiful week in Madeira with the Perry family with lots of time in a beautiful old mansion on the side of a hill, in the swimming pool and wandering around the lush garden. Luna was a star and got so much attention. The flight home was less then relaxing and I can't even talk about the flight back from Austria!
  • Started telling me when she needs the loo. Or when she just went.
  • Her favourite person is her Grandma and she adores her Granny Bunny, who she speaks to on Skype and Grandad Berries, Joe's Dad who brings her blueberries and raspberries every couple of weekends. She must be the most loved baby.
  • Making a fuss over getting dressed, I have to entice her by telling her who we are going to see - If you get dressed we can go and see Lola! If you get dressed we can go and see Aksel, Bertie, Jago, Sonny etc! If you get back in the bike seat we can go home and see Daddy! It works.
  • Luna came in to the shop with me at Loula & Deer and she played so happily on the floor with some toys for about an hour and a half. I thought she was going to ruin the displays but she was so good and sat in the server's chair which made everyone who came in laugh. 
  • Loves her teddies and gives them huge kisses and cuddles. She also loves the have a little bag which Granny Bunny gave her and is copying lots of what I do. It is so interesting to hear her play, impersonating me - saying no! to her dolls and speaking on the phone like I do to 'dolly'
  • ALSO she has discovered Peppa Pig and is totally in love. She asks for Pepig the second she wakes up and if she sees me going to my computer she shouts PEPIGGG! I have had to only allow her to watch it at dinner time or occasionally on a Saturday morning if I need a bit more sleep as she has started pushing me literally out of the bed saying mama up! mama out!
  • She also started saying sorry and it really made me realise how often I say it and made me think about the meaning of it. I don't want her to be a woman who apologieses for herself the whole time. When she says it it breaks my heart - sowwy mama. 
  • She is pretty scrappy and I have had to sign 2 forms at nursery when she has either been bitten or scratched. Apparently she always wins the fights, oh my god this is so reminiscent of me when I was little! But I thought that was because I had older brothers who were so scrappy. Now there is no excuse except genetics!
  • She loves the toys which my mum kept from my childhood - a Fisher Price school house and plays with them a lot. 
  • Now we can walk places without the buggy and we hold hands walking along the alleyway above our house, her little hand in mine, her body bouncing from side to side, she is so easily distracted by the doorways along the alley and flowers growing out of the cracks in the pavement.
  • We have spent a lot of the summer lying on grass and splashing in paddling pools and in sprinklers and she loves being outside. 
Motherhood is confusing in ways I hadn't expected - there is pressure coming from, I am not sure where, myself probably, to pursue my career and set an example for when Luna is older, I want her to be proud of me and I want to be creative, have an identity away from being a mother but I also want to give her everything and right now that feels like being with her as much as I can despite the financial implications and the urge to work more.

Tuesday, 19 May 2015

Luna 18 Months

A whole year and a half old! Luna is turning into a little girl, her hair is getting long and her tummy isn't quite as chubby as it once was. I love her so much she is really fun at the moment, this is the best age since she was about 9 months. My favourite bit at the moment is the kisses; she woke me up this morning by kissing me on the nose - I think it was meant for my lips but she missed. Cute. She is also very into blowing kisses when we say goodbye to someone. Also cute. Sorry for being a baby bore this probably makes babyless people a little sick in their mouth.
She has got so good at playing, with the most unlikely of things sometimes too. She played with 4 postcards for about an hour at the weekend and she is obsessed with changing our shoes, I often end up wearing sandals when it's raining and slippers just before we go out. She is going to nursery on Thursdays and when I pick her up we are so excited to see each other, we go down to Yellowave on the beach so that she can play in the sandpit and I buy her a mini milk ice cream, a lot of it ends up down her dress or in my mouth. Yum. Last week there was a little boy there who was chasing a pigeon around in circles and she was absolutely cracking up over it. Shouting Anya Anya (what she calls me - yup) to see what he was doing. She is picking up on lots of words now too, I need to write them down but her best is night night and bye bye and flowers and Luna (more like Una) and Lola (more like Ola). She has got pretty good at going on her pot and will now walk moderately far without needing the buggy. We got a metal framed back carrier for Cornwall which she liked. She loved the garden in Linkside, the house we stay in in Cornwall. It was the best week after a couple of hard months of winter in Brighton (just as she got mobile the winter seemed to go on forever, the house was permanently trashed) we spent it in the sunshine in the garden, playing with water and running around after each other. Hoping for a summer of this too. Happy happy.


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Friday, 24 April 2015

May Wishlist

1. Hugo Monkey Boots from Young Soles
2. Nordstrom Romper
3. Oh My Kids! Jumper
4. Twig Wooden Camera
5. Madewell Dress
6. Normann Copenhagen Jug
7. Clark & Dumbo Candle
8. Aether Speaker (lusting over this hard!)
9. Rachel Zoe Sandle

Saturday, 11 April 2015



...Just cos they are pretty.
All from knighttcat

Friday, 27 March 2015

Isabel Marant AW15

You know the wedge trainer? Well that all started with Isabel Marant (this time around - lets not talk about Buffalos) so apparently we are all going to be wearing high waisted trousers this Autumn, as per my English teacher from 1988. Can't wait to see how the high street does it.
All these fabrics though. Love.

White Moon

Did you know we do white phases of the moon decals too?
Shop here.

Sunday, 15 March 2015

Luna 16 Months

Since January Luna has got more and more interested in the world - she is a wild one, totally fearless, she never really clings on to me at playgroups or around other kids, she wants to feel and touch everything and she gets bored very fast! She has such a huge yearning to see everything and go everywhere, I have found certain times with her these past two months really tough and exhausting. Being a mother is endlessly domestic and repetitive and on the rare day when we don't have plans I find it so hard to go from morning until evening without speaking to anyone. The support of Mothers new and old has been one of the best parts of the past couple of years and I have made some incredible friends which I am so thankful for. They stop me feeling quite so insane and it's spooky how often one of us says something which the other is thinking/going through at the same time. 

I am heading back to freelance graphic design 3 days a week (let me know if you need me!) as of the end of April and although my heart literally hurts at not spending everyday with Luna I think it will be so good for her to hang out with other kids at nursery and spend some time with her Grandma and a dear friend of mine Lola (and her puppy, categorically the love of Luna's life is dogs so yeah... I think she will like this set up) and I hope it will make me a better parent in many ways because I can be so distracted when we are together. I want to work on being much more present in the time we will have together. I will get all my instagramming, vlog watching and blog reading done on my commute!

I think it took me by surprise that I have found the second year so much more challenging than the first year. I had heard the words just get through the first year and you will be ok so many times but I never struggled in the first year like I have since her tantrums, destruction of everything in her path and relentless energy and demands have picked up. It's different for everyone, something I have found out a lot too. But it being difficult is ok and although a bit of a surprise, it is a part of being a parent. Hard doesn't mean bad, in this case anyway. Plus everything is a phase right, right?! 18 months I have been promised you are a million times better! Don't tell me otherwise Mamas.

But onto the best bits of the past couple of months; Luna now says - hiya, oh dear, oh no, Eddie (constantly, this is Bertie the dog, I know perfectly logical right!?) Daddy, teddy, tummy, baby, nana (banana) Fraaa (can't quite get to the end of Frankie, 2 syllables is tricky when you are 1) row row as in your boat and does a woof woof sound for dog which I taught her but wouldn't be recognisable to anyone else! She is absolutely dog obsessed shouting Eddie every time she catches even a glimpse of a dog in the distance! Her favourite spot is on the swings in St Ann's Wells playground where the swings look out over a bit of grass where there are a lot of dogs being walked. Her 2 favourite things at once, heaven! When she breaks something, spills something or after sneezing she says ooooh in such a downbeat way it makes me laugh. She is funny. She loves putting things around her neck such as my bra or pants or fur scarf. I hear you lady, accessorising is the best! The most she ever laughs is in the bath when she is splashing like crazy or pelting us with saturated sponges. We have a new little tradition (one of the things which made me most excited about starting a family was making new traditions) that we have a candle lit bath on Sunday nights. She is always wide eyed during it. Must be quite cool the first time you see candles. And a super relaxing way to end the week. She is also super ticklish especially under her chin and is still madly obsessed with Frankie, who she quite regularly gets in a bouncer style head lock. Sadly this love continues to be unreciprocated. All in all life is pretty great and I am so excited for more of whats to come - the conversations and the learning and the summer! Man are we ready for a few warmer days to spend in the sandpit, countryside and on the beach.
And this summer i am doing it... I'm getting us Birkenstocks. I wish I could say that we are all excited about it.